lacking in thoughts

I've been MIA quite a bit and I apologize for that. Lately it seems that I'm either at school, driving the kiddo to school, at clinical, studying (which I should be doing WAY more of), or sleeping. Oh, and I should add in there cleaning the house, cooking, laundry, etc. I am definitely going to try and keep this blog more up to date than I've been doing.

So... I told everyone that I get to be my sister's MOH for her June wedding!!!! So exciting!!! Last weekend we went dress shopping and picked out some fabulous dresses for the bridesmaids and myself. That day was an ugly eye opener for me. Wow when did I get so HUGE? I'm not even going to tell you what size dress I have to wear, it makes me cry (literally) when I think about it. The good thing is that I have pictures of me in these dresses that I can look at daily to remind myself of why I've given up Dr Pepper (except for 1 on my clinical day, and 1 on Saturday if needed), and why I'm counting my calories, and drinking a ton of water & Crystal Light. Even more of a good thing: between Tuesday & Friday I had already lost 5 lbs, I gave myself a little break on Saturday and had a slice of pizza, some chips & dip, some m&m's, and some beer - don't judge people! and I as of this morning I was still down 3.5 lbs! This coming week I plan to continue with my portion control, healthy foods, fluids, no eating after dinner, and then add my treadmill to the mixture. I think by June it's possible to be a size 2 - ha ha ha ha!!!! As if! Maybe add about 8 sizes to that and it'll be more accurate! My official weigh in day is Tuesday so I'm excited to see how this first week went.

Also on Tuesday is my first test for my OB class. As of now I have a 100%, kick ass! Though I'll be honest, that only consists of 2 quizzes and 1 paper, which only equals out to 9 measly little points. Oh well, they are 9 points of which I have them all! =)

Tomorrow I have check-offs on putting iv's in, Lord help me and the patients that have me doing this to them! lol

Have a great week blog world, I hope to stay in touch more often!

update

I finally got my pathology reports back today, thankfully my lump was benign. I passed all the tests for lymphoma so now I can breathe a sigh of relief. Tomorrow I have clinicals, 12 hrs with mom's getting ready to have their babies and time in the nursery loving on the new babies... sounds like a fabulous day to me!

I've still had quite the case of the blues lately, I'm hoping that soon I'll find a way to climb out of this slump and join the bright side again!

Friday Night Craziness

My Friday night consists of me, my laptop, iCarly (that's right, iCarly), and about 15 men in my basement playing cards. I walked downstairs to check in on the boys and thought I might vomit because the smell of 15 different colognes was so overwhelming! My entire day has been spent in bed.... m.i.g.r.a.i.n.e. Nothing is helping this. Obviously sitting here and typing & watching t.v. is doing nothing for me but if I lay in bed all I can hear are the guys voices coming up through the vent... so not cool.

Have a good weekend folks...

it's baby time!

No - I'm not pregnant! lol Today was my first day in OB rotation, I'm pretty excited! Some of today's lecture left me feeling shocked that I'd actually had 2 babies! It's just that medical terminology that when you're pregnant the dr's don't use with you, you know, laments terms! I'm sure I'll adjust and I'm so excited to continue with this 8 weeks. This week will be really busy and tomorrow I go into the city to work with inner-city kids at a YWCA (yes I typed that right, YWCA, not YMCA). I'm not sure what working with girls ages 9-12 has to do with OB, I mean if they were pregnant young girls I would maybe understand but just young girls? Hmmm..... According to my instructor we're going there to show these girls that there are many options out there for them other than what their families are able to show them. Seems like this would have been a better thing to do during my mental health rotation but whatever! :) I think I've narrowed down my choices to either working in the NICU or working in a pediatric cancer ward. Both are hard fields but my heart wants to be helping kids and their parents as much as I can.

So anyway, I hope everyone is having a fabulous start to their week. I'm looking forward the challenges of this week!

I want I want I WANT!!!!

I want spring...

I want my windows open...

I want to sit on the back deck and feel the breeze...

I want to go on walks with the kids & dogs...

I want to grill again...

I want to sit on the deck after the boys are sleeping & drink a glass of wine...

sorta here

I took a break from blogging (is a week actually considered a break?) I just mentally needed to shut down for a little bit. Do you ever feel like life is going so fast that you're missing everything? My oldest son will be 6 in just 2 days. That's so hard for me to grasp! My baby is already 15 months old, he can run, throw balls, eat big people foods, be ornery as hell.... I feel like we got to this point and maybe I didn't take advantage of the time!

Today I went and had surgery to remove a lymph node. It's been sent to pathology and I should have some type of results in 10 days. I imagine this will be the longest 10 days. So I'm feeling slightly nauseated tonight, and having some pain at the surgical site. Thankfully I have some Darvocet so I'm just waiting for it to kick in so I can sleep another few hours.

~sigh~ I'm ready to get out of this slum that I'm in. School gets started again on the 19th, I'm ready for a routine again. I know that being a stay at home mom is an actual job but somehow I'm left feeling like I have no purpose. I'm ready to get back out in the work force and have my own income. I want to take my kids shopping just because I can, I'd like to just go buy candles because I want to. At this point I just need to feel like I'm contributing.

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where are you S?

S. from a.little.bit.delirious I can't find you! You turned your blog private and you invited me to follow it, which I accepted.... but now I don't get any updates about you and can no longer locate your blog! Please contact me as I miss reading your posts and am anxious to hear how your little bambino is doing!!!!!

X-mas photos

Riley getting ready for x-mas eve service

me with my siblings & our kids, x-mas eve service

my family

Logan, putting cookies out for Santa

the cousins on x-mas morning

my dad with the wiener dogs

see ya soon

I've decided to take a break from the blog world. Hopefully I'll still check in on your posts but I won't be blogging for a bit. I've got a lot on my mind and feel like I just need to step back and not worry about any extra things. I wish all of you a happy new year and hopefully I won't be gone for too long!