birthing fears

As the time is coming closer I have to decide if I want to have a c-section or try a vaginal delivery again.  Doctors recommend a c-section but my primary OB is allowing me to make the final decision - as long as my Gestational Diabetes doesn't cause any other complications.  The reason for the c-section is because both of my previous births turned high risk when the doctor realized my pelvis was shaped wrong and my babies couldn't fit out easily.  Both boys suffered from shoulder dystocia.  Both needed help breathing.  Very scary births.  So you're probably wondering why I would want to do it again?  Well, I think it would be amazing to be the first person to hold my baby.  I have always imagined my baby coming out and being placed right on my chest.  Plus, I know this may sound crazy to some, but the entire labor process is such a huge bonding moment between spouses.  It's this almost magical time that we have with each other to embrace our love and feel the excitement building as we wait for the arrival of a miracle that we created! More than likely if I tried for a vaginal delivery, it would end in c-section.  So why not just opt for the c-section?  I really have no clue.  I don't want to deal with the recovery of a c-section, though to be honest I don't want to deal with the recovery of a vag delivery either! lol  I'm completely torn, and only have another week or two left to decide what route I want to go.    I know I'm missing a lot of other details in this post, like the size of my babies, my previous inductions etc..... but you guys get the idea, right?  I could use some serious support in the decision that I have to make!

the joys of pregnancy

sore nipples


lack of sleep


peeing every 20 minutes


ripping feelings in your stomach


stretch marks under your boobs


heartburn


exhaustion


and this my friends, is just in my recent weeks........


nausea


emotions running wild


feelings of starvation


zits


constipation


I am thrilled that the above are no longer issues!


things to look forward to in the next 7 1/2 weeks


becoming a whale


boobs continuing to hurt


boobs leaking


increasing fear of c-section


continuing to poke my fingers to check my blood sugars


in all seriousness though - ok, we all know the above was completely serious as well....


10 tiny fingers and 10 tiny toes


cute little button-nose


beautiful eyes


round little bellies


finally knowing pink or blue


and since I'm being 100% honest


beer


sangria


icecream


someone bringing me home cooked meals :)