Friday, April 20, 2012

birthing fears

As the time is coming closer I have to decide if I want to have a c-section or try a vaginal delivery again.  Doctors recommend a c-section but my primary OB is allowing me to make the final decision - as long as my Gestational Diabetes doesn't cause any other complications.  The reason for the c-section is because both of my previous births turned high risk when the doctor realized my pelvis was shaped wrong and my babies couldn't fit out easily.  Both boys suffered from shoulder dystocia.  Both needed help breathing.  Very scary births.  So you're probably wondering why I would want to do it again?  Well, I think it would be amazing to be the first person to hold my baby.  I have always imagined my baby coming out and being placed right on my chest.  Plus, I know this may sound crazy to some, but the entire labor process is such a huge bonding moment between spouses.  It's this almost magical time that we have with each other to embrace our love and feel the excitement building as we wait for the arrival of a miracle that we created! More than likely if I tried for a vaginal delivery, it would end in c-section.  So why not just opt for the c-section?  I really have no clue.  I don't want to deal with the recovery of a c-section, though to be honest I don't want to deal with the recovery of a vag delivery either! lol  I'm completely torn, and only have another week or two left to decide what route I want to go.    I know I'm missing a lot of other details in this post, like the size of my babies, my previous inductions etc..... but you guys get the idea, right?  I could use some serious support in the decision that I have to make!

Sunday, April 15, 2012

the joys of pregnancy

sore nipples

lack of sleep

peeing every 20 minutes

ripping feelings in your stomach

stretch marks under your boobs



and this my friends, is just in my recent weeks........


emotions running wild

feelings of starvation



I am thrilled that the above are no longer issues!

things to look forward to in the next 7 1/2 weeks

becoming a whale

boobs continuing to hurt

boobs leaking

increasing fear of c-section

continuing to poke my fingers to check my blood sugars

in all seriousness though - ok, we all know the above was completely serious as well....

10 tiny fingers and 10 tiny toes

cute little button-nose

beautiful eyes

round little bellies

finally knowing pink or blue

and since I'm being 100% honest




someone bringing me home cooked meals :)