i am officially scrooge...
well maybe not that bad but i swear there is no holiday spirit inside of me.
i'm looking and looking but it has avoided me this year.
normally when it comes to christmas spirit, i am the epitome of it.
seriously, i listen to christmas music the day after halloween, i watch abc, hallmark, lifetime, anything that may possibly have a christmas movie on it.
but this year... i'm doing all of the same things but i couldn't even begin to be excited about the holidays.
i think it all started right before thanksgiving.
the hubs learned he'd be going back to work, however he'd be working nights.
so... thanksgiving day came, we went to my parents as usual, ate, and then after eating he had to leave to come home and sleep.
i brought the kids home just in time to say goodbye to him, and he was off.
for the next 3 nights.
our first nights away from each other.
our shopping time together is on the weekends.
well we only have logan every other weekend, so our time is limited as a family.
after working nights the hubs went and worked a few saturdays... so of course there went our family time.
my favorite family tradition is that within a few days of thanksgiving we all go to a hallmark store and buy a new ornament.
we still haven't done that yet :(
now this week and next week hubs is working nights again.
he leaves at 6pm and gets home around 5am.
sleeps until 3 normally, showers, eats dinner with us, and back on the road again.
it's tough on me, tough on the kids.
poor logan is so funny, he got upset the other night and said "it's not fair that sage has to work all night while the rest of the world is asleep!".
aren't kids adorable?!
so to add to my gloominess i got a phone call from logan's principal today, apparently logan either tried to take another boys bracelet (he claims he was just looking, we'll never know the truth i'm sure) - anyway the other boy punched logan in the face.
the other boy is a problem child, logan adores him but he is a bad influence.
held back a year already due to behavioral issues.
talks about burning the school down, etc.
a real great influence.
so we got to deal with that tonight.
onto happier times, or so i thought.
tomorrow is logan's class "Polar Express" party, they worked towards the party for 2 months, have to earn points for behavior etc in order to have the party.
once they get the clear for the party, they get to wear pj's to school, bring a blanket, pillow & stuffed animal.
they have done a party once back in october and i remember logan being so excited for it.
so tonight i was trying to plan out our morning, logan won't be wearing his pj's to school tomorrow.
and he won't be taking his blanket (it's a thomas the train big fleece blanket my mom made for him years ago)
apparently the last time they had a party he got made fun of for his pj's (superman) and his blanket.
my heart just ached for him tonight, he looked so sad.
he's growing up so quickly and i really hate how mean kids are.
i remember growing up being tough but i sure don't remember it being this early.
i vividly remember kids being mean in 5th grade but nothing before that.
how about you? how was it being a kid for you? and what the heck can i do for my child to help him through these times? and how on earth am i gonna get my christmas spirit when i feel so sad? i know i know, be thankful for what we have. 2 healthy kids, my husband is working, i have graduated.... pretty selfish of me to ask for more i know... :(