Saturday, November 7, 2009

close but I'm still here!

Yup, I still have another hour and a half to procrastinate on this blog! It's been a busy day! I woke up with a headache from H-E-L-L... that's right I said it.... plus cramps that came from the same place! What's up with this world? Good thing baby boy was willing to take a 2hr morning nap and Logan was willing to watch cartoons so that I could sleep!

I have spent the last 6 hours with a paint brush/roller in my hand... can you say exhausted? I got the living room painted and am currently putting the finishing touches on the dining room. Maybe tomorrow I'll post some pictures and you guys can help me decide if the colors in my dining room go together or not. I'm leaning towards not.... but then sometimes lean back to yes. And I LOVE the color that I used in the living room, but now I'm afraid that it has darkened everything up too much. The biggest complaint I have is that the trim is still brown. I have so much work ahead of me but I think I'm willing to take on the challenge if it means I can have white trim again!

On to an actual topic.... I've had so many thoughts running through my head the last few days. A friend of mine is now the proud father to a baby boy. He was born on Wednesday. Then on Thursday the brother of the mom (did I confuse anyone?) killed himself. I don't know if it was intentional or not but regardless, he took "something" and wasn't responsive, he was taken into the hospital and unable to be revived. This kid was only 21 years old. He had been at the hospital the previous day to be with his sister while she had her baby, only to kill himself the next day? That poor mother. She isn't able to completely enjoy the wonderful experience of having a baby. And now when it's little Aiden's birthday she will also be reminded of the loss of her brother. How does a person deal with that? I can only imagine how devastated she is.... not only has she lost her baby brother but she has hormones going absolutely insane right now. That poor girl!

Note to self: if my brother ever does something that selfish I will kill him! I know... probably won't do much good to kill him after he kills himself.. but you get the point.

This reminds me of my mental health class. They taught us that children don't understand the concept of death. They watch cartoons and movies where the characters die but then miraculously are back! When working on the children's psych unit we were told about how kids mistakingly kill themselves. Really? Mistakingly? Well yeah.... they think if something bad happens to them, their parents will be sad, but they'll come back to life. At least that's the way it works on t.v.! It makes me wonder that these people who commit suicide don't mean to do it. I know, confusing.... but seriously. If they take something with the idea that they will be found and saved, and maybe gain attention or more love.... I don't know... it's all very confusing to me. Very sad. We've lost too many friends in the last year and a half or so. 3 of them to suicide and they were all so young.

Alright... sorry that this post got so depressing and deep there! I'll be more cheerful tomorrow and will hopefully have some pictures to show off!

1 comment:

Jennifer said...

Wow, thats so sad.

I'm not surprised to learn that fact about kids an suicide makes it's really scary though. You never know what goes through their minds. Ya know?