Sunday, April 11, 2010

failing

Have you or do you ever feel like you are trying and trying and no matter what you do you're still failing? That's where I'm at these days. School is going fabulous, my husband is still working, we have a ton of yard work that we've gotten done, Logan is doing excellent in soccer, Riley is once again sick but that's become somewhat in the norm. My family is doing great, and then the ex comes in the picture again. I can try and try to make things work between us but it just doesn't work. I have a couple of close friends and I am very close with my husband but I feel like I can't even talk to them. I'm all alone in this horrible "place" that I'm in and it's one of the worst feelings I've experienced. We will end up back in court before long, I have to meet with my lawyer this week. I just don't know what to do. I'm at that place in life where I feel like the world hates me, my family hates me, that place where I finally felt like I was on top of the world and then it crashed down around me with one phone call... the cruel things that people can say about you, it's awful and heartbreaking... Sorry for such the downer of a post... to my readers, comments are nice but please don't leave any hurtful ones as I just can't deal with it anymore!

6 comments:

Adge said...

Sorry things are good with your ex. Just look at all the other great positive things going on in your life.

devin's mom said...

Keep your chin up.

beany02 said...

you're an awesome person and you dont deserve to have any negativity in your life...sometimes the world just doesnt make sense. you have a ton of people who love you, including me!!

Annie said...

oh hun, i'm sorry you are having a tough time right now.
i will be praying for you. you are in my thoughts.
keep your chin up, you are a strong lady.

Kristen said...

i know EXACTLY what you are going through and i am positive we could share stories. i am so sorry you are having to deal with this. let me know if you want to vent! kristen.b.weldon@gmail.com

~The South Dakota Cowgirl~ said...

You cannot expect your ex husband to be something or act in a way which he isn't capable of acting. You know he an ass. Soooo, don't be disappointed in him when he acts like himself. Also, you cannot control other people. All you can do is control how you react to him; how other people react to you and what they say about you, is simply a reflection of themselves. NOT a reflection on you.