Thursday, July 15, 2010

oh heavens

I am just lost, is that sad to say? Pathetic sounding? I want to find a job so bad! But what sucks is that I start school again in August, my regular babysitter has opted not to keep my little guy for me this semester.... what am I to do? Sage has lost his job.... this economy sucks! Please tell me when the last time was that a construction worker didn't have work during the summer? My husband is actually an electrician but he works with all the new constructions.... Basically life is sucking right now. I'm embarrassed of the things we're putting on craigslist, things that will only help us get by but are enough that I'll miss them. Life is sad right now. I've lost my happy place. A close friend of ours lost his mother last night after a battle with breast cancer. She was in remission and went home from work with chest pains, later she sat up and coughed blood and then died. What a horrible time for that family. And here I am feeling sorry for myself? What kind of person am I? Sorry for the crying, I guess I'm reaching out to my friends out here, I need words of wisdom, advice, something to help me get it together!

5 comments:

Kate Spears said...

while you definitely have plenty of things on your plate right now that are of the "less than great" variety, i know that better things are in store! everytime i wear my sweet bracelets that you sent me, i'll think of you and send a little prayer heavenward for your precious family! keep us posted girlie and feel free to lean on your support system!

Anonymous said...

As bad as everything stinks right now you need to remember that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes we have to take jobs we don't want that have nothing to do with our profession just to get by and just remember this will only be temporarily. Hang in there!

Lucky in Love said...

I am so thinking of you sweetie. What a hard time you are going through. But I know there is a plan out there for you and you can take comfort in that. It won't always be easy...but you'll make it :)

beany02 said...

im here for you girl! anything you need, just let me know. if you need me to take the boys for a day or come watch them at night if you just need a break, i would be happy to do that. things WILL get better, you and sage will get through the tough times, no matter how bad they suck

Pink in a sea of blue said...

Oh, so sorry to hear all of this news. Hopefully, your husband finds a job soon. It sounds like your road trip/reunion was a bright spot among the stressful time. Your kids will remember your trip as a good time, even though you guys see it as a struggling time. Hopefully, that helps a little and things will turn around for you quickly. Hugs...