trouble sleeping

The irritation is just boiling up inside of me and keeping me from sleeping!!!! This week was our county fair. Anyone with kids knows how excited they are to go ride rides! On Tuesday I checked with my ex-husband to see if he was going to take our son to the fair (Tuesday is his evening) and he told me no. When I went to drop the kiddo off the first thing out of his dad's mouth was "hurry up we're going to the fair!". Obviously the kid is ecstatic! Fast forward: Logan comes home, didn't go to the fair because his dad didn't want to go. WTH? Why bother even mentioning the fair to a 5-yr old and then decide you can't go because you don't want to??? What's up with that? Thursday evening kiddo heads to his dad's again, it's also his last Thurs to be with him since school starts next week. Still, no fair. This is my weekend with Logan and we have lots of fun plans. #1: heading to the fair Friday night (tonight). Logan is thrilled. We head out around 7 and didn't get home tonight until midnight, lots of fun was had! At one point in the evening we ran into his dad's girlfriend and her daughter. Exchanged hellos, I asked Logan if he wanted to do rides with K (the daughter) and he said no. So we move on. Not 5 minutes later along come his dad with the girlfriend, the daughter & the daughters friends. My husband and son are standing in line for a ride. Logan didn't even want to go talk to his dad. He just kept looking at them..... I think it was going through his head that that was "their" family. Maybe not exactly in those words. I imagine that Logan thought that his dad only visited with the girlfriend when Logan was there too, I don't think he had any clue that they all do things together when he isn't with them. Poor kid. It was such an awkward situation that my hubs had to persuade Logan to go and hug his dad....

About 3 hours later I get a text from his dad asking if he can have Logan some this weekend. Um, sorry but no you can't! This is MY weekend.... you had last weekend and 2 evenings this week, if there was something you wanted to do then you've had plenty of time to do it... sorry if you spent too much time worrying about what the gf wanted to do! Truthfully we do have a busy weekend planned, but I wasn't about to give up my weekend. I think what brought this all on was that my husband has started taking Logan golfing during the week and then every weekend that we have him they go golf. Logan is LOVING it! Then with this incident at the fair where Logan wanted to stay with Sage (my hubs) instead of go talk to his dad. I think his dad is finally getting a wake up call that hey, maybe he should have been a little more involved!!!! Too late now buddy, I think the wheels are starting to turn in this poor kids head and he's seeing things for how they are.

Ugh, sorry to be like this but I just had to vent and get it off my chest! Am I wrong? Those of you (if there are any of my readers) that have kids with a prior husband or bf? I don't think I'm being too harsh..... there's been so much shit in the past from this ass.... if it wasn't for getting an amazing child out of that relationship I would venture to say that he was my biggest mistake ever. Blah... sorry, I promise I'll be more cheerful tomorrow!