Thursday, November 4, 2010

the one that makes no sense

and pretty much has no point.... maybe?  Already I'm starting this post out being confused.  I haven't written much lately and that makes me sad, but every time I get around to posting and can't decide what to write about.  Is there anything interesting in my life?  Well my kids of course but are my readers even interested in knowing every move we make over the weekend?  Then there is school but do you all really want to hear about the stress that continues to hang over my head every day?  And then there's the fact that my husband is still unemployed but if I talk about that all there is to say is depressing.  I'm not much of a praying person.  Religion isn't my thing.  Not because I don't believe, I just don't understand I guess.  So much pain and suffering in the world, so much that makes no sense to me.  It's tough to think that there is some"one" up there who wishes these things on people.  Does that make sense?  Anyway, I think religion is like politics, probably best if left out of conversations! lol  But moving on, this non-praying self is actually saying a daily prayer just asking for something to come along, something to get my husband back on a payroll again, and something for me to get a job too.  So many applications are out there yet no one calls me... really? am I that dull that I can't catch anyone's attention?!

So updates: Kids are still being kids.  They had so much fun at Halloween.  Even Riley, once he figured out that behind every door was a piece (or two) of candy then he was full out running to each house!  He was sooo funny!  We had bought a lot of candy to hand out at our house and then at the last minute the hubs and I decided that we both wanted to walk around with the kids... so, not only do we have 2 huge bags full of candy from the boys but we have every single piece of candy that we had bought to hand out!  Holy crow!  I'm sure I'll gain at least another 20lbs due to this!  :-(   secretly I'm loving all the Reeses' Peanut Butter Cups though! ha!

School is keeping me busy.  I had my first test today for this course and rocked a B!  Yippy for me!  Monday I have to turn in a 5 to 8 page research paper, which of course I haven't started yet, so you can see what my weekend will consist of!  Graduation is so close I can nearly taste it!  We all had to submit photos and songs to be played during a slide show, I'm so excited to see it.  It was a blast pulling up pictures from the last couple of years and it made me realize that I will actually miss being at school with all of these new friends!

Horse: well the horse is a horse of course!  I still have her, she's still for sale.  I rode last Sunday and she did great, handled new experiences with grace & dignity.... rode her today, and she disgraced herself.  On the positive side she has gained back nearly all the weight she lost since I bought her, she's starting to look much better!

Husband: he's home playing the "mr mom" role and it frustrates me!  Bless the man's heart cause he's trying so hard to be helpful, does dishes, cleans up, but he puts everything in the wrong place!  I find myself being (excuse my language here) quite bitchy with him!  I know I'm doing it but I just can't stop!  I think the stress is getting to me.

Friends: well here's an interesting topic for me.  I don't know even where to go with this one.  I love my friends, really I do.  BUT I feel like I need some new ones.  Why is it that no friends ask us to dinner?  or to a park? or something involving our kids?  Seriously the only invites that we get are to go to bars or parties.  Now I realize that my husband and I are a fun couple to be around, lets face it, we're the life of the party! (I might be exaggerating a little here) but we do have kids and we're grown ups and sometimes it would be nice to have friends who understood that.   What do you guys do that have kids? How do you make it all happen?

Health: um, did my warrantee run out?  I woke up almost 4 weeks ago and my knee was swollen.  After about 4 days of it I finally went into the doctor.  BTW when I say swollen I mean HUGE, couldn't do the stairs, couldn't kneel down.... the "doctor" looked at it and says "yup, it's swollen"... (no shit sherlock) and prescribes me a little bit stronger of an anti-inflammatory.  No luck with that.  It'll be 4 weeks on Saturday and I still can't kneel down or walk long distances, or do a lot of stairs.  Tomorrow I go in to my surgeon's office (is it cool that I have a surgeon?) and am getting a biopsy done on a nodule that's been growing on my thyroid.  Let me tell you about this, you stay a.w.a.k.e. during this procedure! They take a needle and stick it through your neck and go down to your thyroid, using an ultrasound to make sure they don't nick anything they shouldn't... comforting huh?  Luckily I convinced my dr to prescribe me a Valium to take an hour before the procedure, hopefully that will make me so happy I won't even know what's happening!

Wow... so I started this post thinking I had nothing to say, and also saying that I wouldn't whine.... sorry that I lied!  Hopefully I didn't bore you all too much!

Enjoy the pictures that I've randomly posted, these are some of my favorites.  I either like the way I look, or have such great memories of the time/place it was taken...  so between each paragraph of whining I thought I'd at least share some happiness!  :-)

Also... blogger says that I have 46 followers, thank you friends for sticking with me through the fun and not-so-fun posts!  Can we do a poll of some sorts?  What do you guys like reading about?  My kids?  Crafts?  Recipes?  Complaints? ha ha!  I love getting comments from people so I want to make sure people are still enjoying what they read... so?  Let me hear it


Stephanie in Suburbia said...

I so hear you about needing new friends! I go through this all of the time! Most of my friends are from high school. I love them, but things are different than when I was 16, ya know? I need some people who I am compatible with NOW, in my 30s. But it's hard to find new friends! I often feel like I'm back in high school sitting alone at the lunch room. I wish you better luck! And good thoughts about the medical stuff. It all sounds awful, esp being awake for a needle in the neck!

BrownEyed Cowgirls said...

I think a lot of us are getting a bit down. Don't know if it's that time of year or if it's just that we are all wearing down due to the economy and lack of options.

Hopefully you and hubby find something soon, it's got to be wearing on both of you. (Hugs)

Shannon said...

I too am finding it hard to come up with new ideas for the blog. Throw into the mix me HATING my job and feeling super depressed each and every day that I leave work... I also agree with you on the friends issue. We just went to a Halloween party and while I did have fun, I'm REALLY overt he whole "frat party" feel of my friends' parties now. Not many of them have kids so I think they are still growing up... Maybe denying their age a little ;o) You should visit IN and we can have a mom party! Anyway, I hope things look up for you. This was probably one of my favorite posts of yours because you were just real. I also loved looking at the random photos! Have a great weekend!

City Girl said...

So sorry that you've had so much stress lately. I really hope that some of it clears itself up soon. Glad that the kids had a fun Halloween though, and I totally hear you on the friends thing. I've been thinking a lot about that very same thing myself!

Kim @ NewlyWoodwards said...

Wow! You have so much going on. When did you decide to sell your horse? I must have missed that. I relate to a lot of this post. Hubby and I are going through a bit of a new friend push right now. We love our old friends (mostly), but we've chagned and so have they. We've all grown up.